Friday, March 30, 2007

The Dejection Point

22nd June 2005
GRT Grand

More than two hundred people were gathered in the conference hall at GRT Grand hotel. Students who wore only t-shirt and jeans appeared in full formals. Bright faces filled with zeal were seen. I too was one among them. It was verizon five day induction programme. To everyone's expectation, it started with the diffuse talks of the HR people. After these tiring talks, sumptuous GRT buffet meal revived us. Post lunch session was light as we were expected to fill up forms only. The following two days we had communication workshop at Shelter resort Mahaballipuram; lots of games providing fun and insight. These two days went in a blink of an eye. The fourth day we were all back to the great hall. Not the HR but technical managers and directors were there. They divulged how verizon business operates and gave us an insight about the various portfolios that support the mighty tree.

The much awaited final day arrived. Its the sorting day; the day we were allocated into projects; the day that determines our career path. The destiny was already determined but yet to be known. The IOBI projects were the center of attraction. Its a project in development stage; latest technologies were used; only creams will enter. Every bloke entered the great hall with this preconception. There was no sorting hat; only HR people stood with printed papers. They read our names one by one and notified the projects we were assigned to and the respective technical training schedule. My name was read; my heart said IOBI but they thought different. I heard a recondite name "DSL online". I could only manage a downcast smile. The HR also informed me that i should be at Tidel park the very next day 9:00 AM sharp. I inquired about my training; they responded negative. Everyone except me got a training schedule. Have i fulfilled all the prerequisites for the job or the job was not worthy enough to deserve a training ?; I wondered. I saw loneliness despite so much people in the hall. Absolute silence i sensed despite the clamor of the crowd. Despondence evaded my heart. But I didn't want to sink on this any longer. Every cloud has a silver lining; I said to myself; cheered up my mind and left for the day.
Grief is the agony of an instant, the indulgence of grief the blunder of a life.
-Benjamin Disraeli (1804 - 1881)